What I Love to Do

After my
half-way mark
inflection point
temporary physical incapacitation
of Week 26, I’m all shook up.

Literally!

We had an earthquake here in Southern California on July 29, 2008 late morning.

The 2008 Chino Hills earthquake occurred at 11:42:15 am PDT (18:42:15 UTC) on July 29, 2008, in Southern California.[1] The epicenter of the magnitude 5.4 earthquake was in Chino Hills, approximately 28 miles (45 km) east-southeast of downtown Los Angeles.[1] From Wikipedia

Jaden was bouncing in the “360 degree baby activity center” when the house began to sway. A gentle sway, but he (and I) got scared. I grabbed him, walked downstairs, and got out of the house.

Other than the earthquake, the week flew by me and I had little recollection of it.

I felt as if I was in that state
Between sleeping and waking.

I was not sure whether
I was asleep or awake.

My only anchor was remembering
I am still with My Self.

The weird thing is, once I look at my email archives, I realized that I got quite a bit accomplished:

I joined a new social networking website, looked at a couple of business opportunities (but chose not to follow through with either one), helped an aspiring entrepreneur design her business strategy (and as a result, implemented the idea of my microbusiness mentoring group the same week), and authored articles for my microbusiness website.

A contrast stood out for me though: when I was mentoring the aspiring entrepreneur and when I was learning more about a potential business opportunity from an acquaintance.

I enjoyed my time spent with both individuals, but I felt very differently during each meeting.

When I was listening to the aspiring entrepreneur, asking her questions, and participating in the brainstorming process, I felt like I had jumped into the swimming pool and I was right there with her, in the water! I felt excited about what we were talking about, and this wasn’t even my own business! I could see how she may become successful, I could even pinpoint exactly where my contribution has made – and will make – the difference between she learning the ropes the hard way (by making lots of mistakes and burning her cash in the process), and springboarding from insights we’ve created.

When I was listening to the acquaintance, asking him questions, and exploring how this potential business opportunity may unfold, I felt like I was wandering along the side of the swimming pool. I felt reluctant to jump in, even as the water was inviting enough. The pool could have been heated – I still didn’t feel right. I didn’t feel passionate about it. I couldn’t grasp my vision of it, and it had nothing to do with my lack of visioning ability.

It was an amazing experience to have these two meetings in two weeks – one on Monday of the first week, the other on Wednesday of the following week. It was amazing because I could acutely observe how stark of a contrast I can feel toward two equally attractive opportunities, just by the degree of my own immersion in the possible futures presented by each event.

While I thought the week had flown by me, I had been building a path to a new adventure.

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